Change is in the air. I can feel it creeping up on me like the wicked witch of the west and before you know it, I'll be transported into another life with just a few clicks of my ruby slippers! Don't get me wrong, I like to embrace change completely and wholey.
I am absolutely ready for a few months of exploring, hiking, eating, yoga'ering, lounging and culture soaking up within the depths of India. I am gagging at the thought of Christmas with my family again - cruising in a campervan, beach hopping and going bush is going to be the perfect homecoming. I am itching to set up camp (a proper camp with four walls, a roof and a vege patch) in a new city, with old friends and new. And I am shit scared of the lingering prospect of a challenge in my career path. I also really want a cat. That's all, just a cat. Then maybe a dog. But we'll see about that.
So with all these fabulous new things to venture it is evident that I will be leaving so many other fabulous things behind. God dammit! And that's where that 'change' bit starts to suck. Mostly I just cruise by life, bumping into people and places, falling in love with mostly everything and then continuing on my jolly way! This time though, I can feel something more concrete on the horizon - like my frolicking and frivolous ways are about to come to an abrubt end! And so I ask myself - so what if they are? Are there more important values in life than to galivant across the edges of the world, dropping absolutely everything just to be wild and free? My usual response is "absolutely fricken not!". But now I'm not so quick to jump the gun. I can feel my priorities shifting, my equilibrium seems be to craving that 'life balance' a little more.
But lets not be completely ridiculous here, I'm not all ready for grown-up land! I'm still quite content with seeing the sun come up (on a weekday even - although this is a rarity). Being mortgage-less and child-less is more than ideal. Using my spare time to sleep in, bake, constantly watch the Olympics, have picnics, walk with friends' dogs, explore vintage markets and to drink copious glasses of red wine with my boyfriend are things that are here to stay!
I guess I am just 'noticing' these things and it feels way better to get them on paper than to have them floating around like driftwood in my head! Quitting jobs, saving money, saying goodbyes and moving to the other side of the world generally aren't easy tasks - but I am blessed to have amazing people surrounding me to make it a whole easier. Especially Josh, definitely stoked to have such a solid as my back bone!
1. canal dog in east london
2. bambi in richmond park
3. corn fields in surrey
4. ferns remind me of nz
5. tower bridge and it's mighty olympic rings
6. a birthday boy cutting a fruit birthday cake (he doesn't like fruit on cake)
7. a silly head tilt
Thank you my Josh and friends (you know who you are) Shani x
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